I’m Back

Okay so I’m going to start all over again, I have no idea what my current weight is but i’m taking a wild guess at around 115lbs based on how my body looks and how it looked at 118lbs a couple months ago.. I’m going to do it properly this time and stick with it, hardcore! I really just want to feel good about my body again.

Gonna be posting/updating daily hopefully and I will post my next starting photos tomorrow hopefully if I have time!

Wish me luck!

x

I’ve basically gained back everything that I lost a couple weeks back so it’s majorly depressing.. I keep trying to get back into Fasting but I’m finding it way too difficult now that I’m on uni break and that.. I’m around the house a lot so
People tend to notice what I eat :( its so bad! The only good thing is that there is hardly ever chocolate here and that’s my weakness so that seems to be okay..
My cousin is living here too and he’s a body builder and he takes all these energy powders and muscle relaxers and things that he gets for free from the company that sponsors him.. He’s offered I get me some so it means that if I used them i’d be able to work out for twice as long and only feel half the pain from it.. It seems perfect but I just can’t bring myself to tell him that I want to lose weight.. Also if I asked him then my whole family would know and mum might freak..
Everything just seems so much harder now :(